Saturday, November 14, 2009

Hold me

These demons are back to haunt me tonight

They wrap around me tight


Hallow thoughts and sleepless nights

As my world begins to crumble


I yell and I scream but no one will hear

I scratch at the door but fall to the floor


The water is rising but that’s just a dream

I’m chocking and dying but its not what it seems


These demons are back to haunt me tonight

They wrap around me tight


So motionless I lay

praying please make them away

T

hen a tear finally falls

And all the demons fly away

Friday, November 13, 2009

Randomz

























quotes from over the years

Lets play dress up
Get drunk of cheep champagne
Turn the lights down low
And dance the night away

So once again I will pretend I don’t cry
Baby I’m sorry I am so fake
But can you hold me anyways?
Because sweetheart tonight I feel so lonely

You left me empty inside
I wasn’t suppose to care
When I told you to leave.

Darling tell me you love me
Then sing me you saddest goodbye

Maybe tomorrow we can try again, I’m to tired to have my heart
Broken tonight

Why couldn’t you love me
As much as you said you did?

Losing a best friend is like loosing a soul mate
Except when you loose a soul mate you have you best
Friends shoulder to cry on.
Who’s shoulder are you suppose to cry on when you
Loose a best friend?

Every time I feel like I am going to cry
I grab a pen and start to write
Because even if its only for a moment
I can forget what’s really going on

Don’t worry about me
I’ve forgotten about you too,
I don’t miss you anymore
I miss having someone there

I don’t even know you
But there’s something making me
Fall madly in love with you

I threw out those pictures
Yeah you know the ones of me and you
When we where happy, they hut to much to see.
I erased you number from my speed dial,
Your no longer my first call, your not even my last.
I deleted you screen name & burned that necklace remember
That one with the tiny heart. I threw out your things, the ones you left
So I wouldn’t forget, well sorry my dear I forgot.


I wanted to go home to the only place
I find comfort but I’ve seem to of lost my way.

Every night I take a look up in the sky to say goodnight to my stars
And they remind me that everything will be ok.

We are both to stubborn to change
But I guess that’s good because we both to stubborn
To give up

Last night I fell asleep
With a smile on my face
And boy it was all because of you.

But those silly love songs made sense again

I just want to be with you, without this long
Distance junk.

Maybe one day I’ll learn
To be happy and smile
With no force but for
Tonight just let me be broken

Hello old friend
Ever since you left
I forgot how smile

That girl got so lost and delirious
She forgot how to smile

I’m sorry my Darling
Me and you are yesterdays news

Make up your mind boy
Either you want to be with me or you don’t
I don’t do in-betweens

I’d promise you a heart
You’d promise to keep
Baby kiss my eyes and
Lay me to sleep

Yeah they where story book lovers
But every good book comes to a end.

I want to be that little old couple
That still holds while whispering
“No I love you more”
in each others ears.

You asked me if I could do this forever and I thought,
I love the way that even after you leave my hair
Still smells like you or the way your laugh makes
Me forget about the rest of the world.
I love the way you smile after I catch
You watching me or right before you kiss me goodnight.
Its true forever is a long time but I don’t need forever
I need right now.

Yeah so you got my attention.. now do something about it

It’s time to start a new Chapter, this one is getting old.

No Baby I don’t love you
But you make me smile
And that’s good enough for now

For the first time In my life
I am the one standing still
While everyone waves as they fly by.

Maybe it’s not love, I just we both fell for our own lies

These tears aren’t really meant for you sweetheart
They’re just to clear my soul

This time I made a promise to my self
Not to cry after it all falls apart
So now I just have to sit and wait for my opportune
Moment to run away like I always do, and hurt my self again
But this time my dear, I’m going to do it
Without a single tear.

There's no more initials to put in those silly little hearts.

If you don’t want me to run
Don’t get to close

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Man in the moon

Look at that girl up there in the sky

She’s floating away

Wont someone take her by her by the hand

Look she’s sailing out to the stars

with one single tear

She sits on the moon

Singing, “Baby its time for you to let me go

Boy its time you forget about me.”

But Darling he never forgot about you

He fell for that girl

Who never learnt to cry

Only one single tear ever stayed in her eye

She could never look you and smile

She just wanted to learn to fly…

Oh fly out to the man in the moon

Where the stars are her friend

Protecting while watching the world go

round wondering why did she let them go?

But Darling he never forgot about you

He fell in love with that girl

That girl that never learnt to cry

Only one single tear ever fell from her eye

But Boy she learnt how to fly

Yes out that that moon

She learnt how to cry


2006

Some of my Photos